Bad news

Oscar is Lida’s boyfriend. Lida is Juan’s sister. Juan is my boyfriend.

Oscar’s family got into a really bad car accident this morning. His mom was crushed in the car so bad, they had to cut the car in half. She didn’t make it. The others were/are in critical condition. One of his siblings is in a comma with both legs broken. His stepdad has some broken ribs. I dunno about the other sibling. Lida and Aku have spent the day with Oscar at the hospital. He was at work when it happened. To add insult to injury, they don’t have papers. Oscar has had it tough, but nothing compared to what awaits him.

Dammit. I feel so sad for him, for his family, for Lida. I also feel guilty once more, but this time it’s more because as much as it was a shock, I felt sadder, it got to me more when majorxero was going through very much of the same. I don’t know why. Was it the shock? Was my bubble burst? It’s not like I’ve never had someone die. I don’t know. It’s so confusing and depressing and I understand that whatever I feel, it’s fine, because everyone takes death differently, and we even change our own ways of dealing with death. It’s all a rollercoaster of emotions.

And about what happened at the AoP last Thursday, well, it relates. An exerpt of what I got in my e-mail:
“I am deeply saddened to inform you that Sadie, one of our female sea lions, passed away today immediately following her routine medical exam. Currently, we do not know the cause of her death. The entire procedure went very smoothly, and Sadie awoke from the anesthesia and was aparently recovering normally. Sadie was then taken to the P1 holding area to allow her some time to rest before going back into her exhibit. During this
time, she became unresponsive to staff who immediately took actions to resuscitate her. Unfortunately, their attempts were unsuccessful. Dr. Adams will be performing a necropsy tonight to help us determine the cause of her death.”

It may not compare, but it’s a loss just the same. I feel kinda stupid starting out this post with the death of Oscar’s mom, and ending with the death of Sadie the sea lion, but they are both important to me.