A new me

I don’t know why it is so hard to update this damned thing. I am on here all day every day (constantly checking even from my phone when I am waiting or bored). I have a running list of things I want to talk about and share, yet I don’t do it! I really am that lazy, folks. And that needs to change. When this year started, I told myself that I wasn’t going to let laziness run my life like it has for so long. Sure, it’s tough to form new habits (especially when the old ones are so comfortable), but the little victories I get like having a clean kitchen every night and putting away all the clean laundry on the same day it was washed are becoming more and more meaningful and motivating.

Immeritus has suffered in my eyes because of this. I have been wanting to do so many things with it (face lift anyone?), but sheer laziness gets in the way. It is a huge and daunting project and even thought I know that breaking it down into smaller more manageable chunks will help me get through it, I don’t do it.

Scrapbooking has sorta come to a dead halt. I have a TON to scrap but I am just not doing it right now. When we get home lately the last thing I want to do is sit at the computer. I think my phone has a lot to do with that. Since I can check everything from there whenever I want to, I do my obsessive scans of my sites throughout the day. Since it is such a bitch to type on though, I don’t reply to stuff but in my head, I already read it, so I don’t go back to it, even when I do get back on the comp.

Wow, I sound like such a whiner.

Slowly, this is all changing. Juan is one of my biggest motivations right now. I need to be my own motivation, but having him be one as well really helps me. I know that he likes to do a lot of stuff that we haven’t done because of my foot problems, work schedules, even being overweight, etc. So I am doing better at home and yesterday we started to go to the gym again.

As much as I hate this development, it also makes me feel good. Call it a “love hate relationship”. Let’s see how much I love it on day two.


Last week we had a tremendous amount of rain around here. More rain last week than we had all last year and this month yielded us more rain than Seattle got (which is notoriously known for its rain) – about 2 more inches, actually! We totally needed that and it was great. On Monday morning, we even got a gorgeous rainbow that went the full 180 degrees! What a wonderful way to start the morning!

All that whinery above is my way of getting it out there and out of my system because I really want this to be my year of change. Of getting rid of the rubbish that bogs me down in my every day life. That rubbish mostly being me, in the quite literal sense too! I have already started at home, at the gym, even at my job! Last Friday, my manager took me out to lunch for my annual review were I almost got a perfect score (there was just one category that I did not “Exceed expectations” in, just merely “Met expectations”, and I knew this one was gonna get me too). I got a 4% raise which is the highest I have ever gotten so I am super happy. I am even teaching myself new skills like using the ellusive pen tool in photoshop (and to be extra productive, I am learning it by vectorizing a photo of Boe that I want to use) for work.

But this is just the beginning of a brand new year. I want to hit my 30th in full steam.

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